Diary entry made by Edith Schiele
Courtesy Kallir Research Institute, New York
ESDA ID
3485
Nebehay 1979
Nicht gelistet/Not listed
Credit line
Courtesy Kallir Research Institute, New York
Place
Neuhaus in Böhmen (Jindřichův Hradec)
Date
27th July 1915 (handwritten)
Material/technique
Ink on paper
Dimensions
24 x 19,5 cm
Transcription
[Translation:]
Tuesday, July 27, 1915 9h in the evening
Finally, today it came true, the troop transport
has taken place. I’m alone here
now, hopefully tomorrow I’ll have the means
to follow. I was alone
in Prague too, but I did not feel
as forsaken as I do here, my
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mood now is the same as it was when Egon
left me on June 21, the longing
sometimes overwhelms me so much that I
have to tell myself to be rational; otherwise
I could fall apart completely.
I have been to the train station no less than five times,
it’s the only place I can bear to be;
I imagine I’m waiting
for the train that will take me to Vienna
and it makes me feel a little better.
I miss my little boy so much, he shouldn’t
have stayed with me that last night,
now I’m feeling twice as lonely.
It’s exactly 9h10 now, if the train has been on schedule,
Egon will be in Vienna now! – and
I’m sitting here alone, with nothing but my longing
for him, I’m more anxious than ever, it’s
a horrible feeling – if only someone would
take pity on me and send that certain thing.
In Prague it was significantly better; here the
whole environment is so depressing, it affects me
so th.[at] I don’t think I can bear it here.
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But what is the use of all this? My lamenting
won’t make it better.
Hopefully, I’ll see Egon on the evening of my arrival,
I really can’t stand it anymore
without him – my feet are so tired
from walking to and from the station
that I’m hardly able to move, and yet I’m not
tired enough to sleep – hopefully
this is my last night here.
Darling, I kiss you goodnight, more
tenderly and beautifully than ever – I love you
so much!!
Tuesday, July 27, 1915 9h in the evening
Finally, today it came true, the troop transport
has taken place. I’m alone here
now, hopefully tomorrow I’ll have the means
to follow. I was alone
in Prague too, but I did not feel
as forsaken as I do here, my
||
mood now is the same as it was when Egon
left me on June 21, the longing
sometimes overwhelms me so much that I
have to tell myself to be rational; otherwise
I could fall apart completely.
I have been to the train station no less than five times,
it’s the only place I can bear to be;
I imagine I’m waiting
for the train that will take me to Vienna
and it makes me feel a little better.
I miss my little boy so much, he shouldn’t
have stayed with me that last night,
now I’m feeling twice as lonely.
It’s exactly 9h10 now, if the train has been on schedule,
Egon will be in Vienna now! – and
I’m sitting here alone, with nothing but my longing
for him, I’m more anxious than ever, it’s
a horrible feeling – if only someone would
take pity on me and send that certain thing.
In Prague it was significantly better; here the
whole environment is so depressing, it affects me
so th.[at] I don’t think I can bear it here.
||
But what is the use of all this? My lamenting
won’t make it better.
Hopefully, I’ll see Egon on the evening of my arrival,
I really can’t stand it anymore
without him – my feet are so tired
from walking to and from the station
that I’m hardly able to move, and yet I’m not
tired enough to sleep – hopefully
this is my last night here.
Darling, I kiss you goodnight, more
tenderly and beautifully than ever – I love you
so much!!
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Vollständige Transkription abgedruckt in:
Edith Schiele: „Das Tagebuch. ‚Ich werde dieses Buch nicht Tagebuch heißen, – sondern Trostbuch‘“, in: Zeiten des Umbruchs. Egon Schieles letzte Jahre 1914–1918, hrsg. von Kerstin Jesse/Jane Kallir/Hans-Peter Wipplinger, Wien 2025, S. 50–77 (Ausst.-Kat. Leopold Museum, Wien, 28.03.–13.07.2025).
Edith Schiele: „Das Tagebuch. ‚Ich werde dieses Buch nicht Tagebuch heißen, – sondern Trostbuch‘“, in: Zeiten des Umbruchs. Egon Schieles letzte Jahre 1914–1918, hrsg. von Kerstin Jesse/Jane Kallir/Hans-Peter Wipplinger, Wien 2025, S. 50–77 (Ausst.-Kat. Leopold Museum, Wien, 28.03.–13.07.2025).
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