Diary entry made by Edith Schiele
Courtesy Kallir Research Institute, New York
ESDA ID
3466
Nebehay 1979
Nicht gelistet/Not listed
Credit line
Courtesy Kallir Research Institute, New York
Place
Neuhaus in Böhmen (Jindřichův Hradec)
Date
2nd July 1915 (handwritten)
Material/technique
Ink on paper
Dimensions
24 x 19,5 cm
Transcription
[Translation:]
Friday July 2, 1915 11h in the morning
At 9h30 Egon surprised me –
how happy it made me – but my joy was
short-lived – he had to leave again after a quarter of an hour –
he dropped in to see me on an “official” errand
– the dear fellow. If he isn’t here again by 5h30
– I will go to him – I hope they will have lifted
the barracks confinement by then.
10h in the evening
There was no going out. – And who knows
how long this will go on for – I’m so terribly worried
that
Egon will get sick – though he doesn’t look it now – no –
but the physical and emotional strain
will – if th.[is] goes on – ruin him
completely. – I just hope we can soon find a way
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for Egon to get away from here. Hopefully
Farkas or Peschka [1] will write tomorrow.
I have such overwhelming longing for Egon today.
In truth, I always have it – but today
it grips me especially – I am not
thinking of certain feelings here – I
long for him as a human being – I can’t even
imagine being with him again day and night.
– It will be too beautiful –
we resolve to always remain together faithfully and never
let anything cast a cloud over our togetherness,
then we’ll think about how terrible it was
– for us to be torn apart like this.
Farewell, Egon, sleep today – don’t think too much about
what cannot be changed (at least for now) – for God’s
sake,
please don’t cry – for I won’t be able to endure
all this if I see – that you are losing courage too.
Sleep – I will try to do the same –
with thoughts of you!
Friday July 2, 1915 11h in the morning
At 9h30 Egon surprised me –
how happy it made me – but my joy was
short-lived – he had to leave again after a quarter of an hour –
he dropped in to see me on an “official” errand
– the dear fellow. If he isn’t here again by 5h30
– I will go to him – I hope they will have lifted
the barracks confinement by then.
10h in the evening
There was no going out. – And who knows
how long this will go on for – I’m so terribly worried
that
Egon will get sick – though he doesn’t look it now – no –
but the physical and emotional strain
will – if th.[is] goes on – ruin him
completely. – I just hope we can soon find a way
||
for Egon to get away from here. Hopefully
Farkas or Peschka [1] will write tomorrow.
I have such overwhelming longing for Egon today.
In truth, I always have it – but today
it grips me especially – I am not
thinking of certain feelings here – I
long for him as a human being – I can’t even
imagine being with him again day and night.
– It will be too beautiful –
we resolve to always remain together faithfully and never
let anything cast a cloud over our togetherness,
then we’ll think about how terrible it was
– for us to be torn apart like this.
Farewell, Egon, sleep today – don’t think too much about
what cannot be changed (at least for now) – for God’s
sake,
please don’t cry – for I won’t be able to endure
all this if I see – that you are losing courage too.
Sleep – I will try to do the same –
with thoughts of you!
Annotations
[1] Jenő (Eugen) Farkas, an acquaintance of Egon and Edith Schiele; Anton Peschka (1885–1914).
Recorded in
Vollständige Transkription abgedruckt in:
Edith Schiele: „Das Tagebuch. ‚Ich werde dieses Buch nicht Tagebuch heißen, – sondern Trostbuch‘“, in: Zeiten des Umbruchs. Egon Schieles letzte Jahre 1914–1918, hrsg. von Kerstin Jesse/Jane Kallir/Hans-Peter Wipplinger, Wien 2025, S. 50–77 (Ausst.-Kat. Leopold Museum, Wien, 28.03.–13.07.2025).
Edith Schiele: „Das Tagebuch. ‚Ich werde dieses Buch nicht Tagebuch heißen, – sondern Trostbuch‘“, in: Zeiten des Umbruchs. Egon Schieles letzte Jahre 1914–1918, hrsg. von Kerstin Jesse/Jane Kallir/Hans-Peter Wipplinger, Wien 2025, S. 50–77 (Ausst.-Kat. Leopold Museum, Wien, 28.03.–13.07.2025).
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PURL: https://www.egonschiele.at/3466